I think I’ve finally found it


So, I’m thinking that this post is going to sound like a cross between spirituality 101 and a fairy tale.  For years I have struggled with the false-self/true-self model.  Not that I didn’t believe that it had validity – too many of my respected mentors speak of it, but I just couldn’t wrap my self around understanding it totally – not that anything spiritual can be totally understood!

It’s just that I didn’t really know what a true self is – because if my false self is the face that I project to the world, than, not only is it depressing,  but then where is this illusive true self and how do I get it to surface?

Once again, my understanding came from a child……who defined a ‘soul’ as the part of you that lives forever with God.  Not only do I love that simplicity, but that definition was an ‘ah-ha’ moment for me.

In order for me to not make this a too-long post, I will highlight my ‘ah-ha’s’

  • I have a soul inside of me that is both beautiful and perfect (the true self that God created???)
  • It is the ‘me’ that is eternal and is united with God both now and forever
  • It is the ‘me’ that God sees – the rest is just fluff and really inconsequential to God – (that point may get me into trouble)
  • I can access my soul anytime I become quiet
  • My soul is where I meet God – we reside there together
  • My soul – my true self – my eternal (noun) – God’s creation is loved.  Beyond all measure, beyond all time, beyond all space, all words and all actions.  My soul is who God created – my ‘me’

Pleasure or Joy

Pleasure or Joy – is there a difference?  I was having a conversation with someone last week and he began to speak about pleasure vs. joy.  As he told it, pleasure is fleeting, joy is lasting.  He gave an example, ‘I can have a glass of wine and that could bring me great pleasure…a good wine, sitting to enjoy it, perhaps sharing it with others, great pleasure.  But when the glass is finished, the pleasure is over.’

Joy is more eternal because joy does not depend on outside circumstances.  Joy is an attitude of the heart.  Joy can sustain good times and bad, peace and turmoil, pain and sorrow. 

I’m sure that Jesus didn’t feel any pleasure on the cross…but, I would imagine that he kept joy in his heart.  Otherwise, how could he have chosen to do what he did?

Pleasure feels good.  Joy produces good.